Franko is 3

Happy 3rd birthday to Frank the Vizsla.

3 years ago you changed our life and made my anxiety levels rise through the roof, bit my sleeves as I walked around, whined at the door, barked at everything and ran circles around our home and our life.

Our life was forever more wild, complicated and simply beautiful all at the same time. Your sad eyes have forced me away from the computer on more than one occasion and I'm grateful for every moment watching you fearlessly bound through the trails trying to get every dog in your path to chase you. You are more entertainment than I ever knew possible. You've been scared by vacuums, lawn mowers and swiffers. You've chased rescue eagles (in crates) and continue to bark when the slightest noise is made around home. You can run faster than most dogs we meet, and can fetch a chuck-it like it's going out of style. You've eaten Bryce's favorite slippers, chewed our molding, and eat popcorn like it's raw meat. You have the worst gas I've ever smelled and give the best hugs. The crazier you are, the harder Maisie laughs. Every day of my pregnancy you walked closer to me and snuggled up as if you knew our time with just "us" was drawing to an end. You've been my most cherished silent friend.

Since Maisie entered our life, it has undoubtedly been more challenging to get you out into the world regularly. We are so thankful for Uncle Scotty and his incredible services at DOGS BEST FRIEND. We honestly couldn't have done it without you Scott!!

The bottom line is, we've made it three years pup, and as crazy as it makes us when you bark uncontrollably at us and at our poor sweet neighbors (SORRY ANGELA AND MELVIN) we can't imagine our lives without you.

HAPPY THIRD BIRTHDAY OLD BOY. We love you. oxoxo

Giving Thanks

Today, and everyday I am grateful for many things. I thought I'd celebrate this thanksgiving weekend with a session from a few weeks ago, that I loved even before I shot. I love this family. (ps. how adorable is Lucia! Melt my heart!!!) Thank you Salvador's for venturing all the way from your cozy life in Vancouver to share some moments, and create a whole collection of favorites with me.

May you all have countless blessings, that come in many forms and disguises and may you be open to accepting them all. May this weekend be full of fall hibernation, with wood stoves and treasures and sweaters and stories. May you see fall colors everywhere and smell incredible food cooking in your home. May you be full, filled right up to the top. May you appreciate, soak it in, and enjoy it all.

Happy Thanksgiving Friends. xo

Looking at the stars

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Oscar Wilde

I'm a pisces. Happy one minute... pensive and serious the next. Bryce says 'you never know who you're going to get'. I say 'predictable is boring'. (this could go on) We all have qualities about ourselves that are great, and ones that are not so great. What you choose to focus on, is entirely up to you.

It's like wanting to buy a certain brand of car. You've never really noticed them before but now that you want one... you see them everywhere. You can talk about all of the great things about them, how perfect it is for you. At every stop light, at every corner, you park beside them, you pass them... they are everywhere. You think, Crazy! Everyone has one! But, maybe they were always there... you just never noticed them until you became aware of them. Or until you changed your focus to see them.

I am probably the most annoying person on the planet, if you want me to be. If you sat and gossiped about all of my faults you might convince someone that I'm not a good person. However, if you chose to notice my positive traits, and focused on them... you might see me entirely differently. I might walk into my house, and see Bryce doing something that bugs me. Maybe he's buying more Lucky Louie's, maybe he's wearing his shoes in the house... if I immediately choose to focus on those things, I might miss that he has just been playing with sticker books, and puzzles on the living room floor for an hour with our little girl. I might miss that he is giving Maisie a bath wearing crazy safety glasses just to make her laugh. If I focus on the negative, I'll never see the positive. In anything, ever.

So, I challenge myself daily, to look for the good. To seek out beauty. If I think the world is a dark, miserable gray place... it is. But, if I look outside and see gray as a mystic West Coast wonderland... it is. They are my eyes, it is my choice. Does it always work? Nope... but I'm a work in progress, and it's getting easier.

That's just the way I see it. (Thanks to Thelma for the images of me in Haida Gwaii)

Happiest Halloween Ever

Recently an amazing soul, Kimberly Wood (Black) (above) was back in the hospital with complications due to Cystic Fibrosis. Her facebook statuses got gloomier than usual, and it really tore my heart out to not be able to do anything for her. Rewind just over a year ago...

Maisie has had complications (since aspirating meconium at birth) with breathing when she gets sick. A common cold turns into countless trips to the Emergency room and machines, and crying and her dad and I looking at each other with those silent "hold it together" looks. The looks that say what we don't dare to say, "I hope it's nothing serious."

When Maisie was just hours old, when a lot of parents would usually be gazing lovingly into the face of their peacefully resting newborn, Maisie was getting an IV and being put into an incubator. Our amazing midwife Sheila was telling us with tears in her eyes what we were facing and a team of rock star Pediatricians from Children's Hospital in Vancouver were flown over to asses her. She was feverish, and having some trouble. My body literally broken having just given birth to a 9 pound 13 oz baby girl, my emotional state, never more fragile. All I could do was hold her little hand through the clear walls of the incubator and silently pray. Luckily, the rock star pediatric team gave us amazing news. She was going to be ok. Maisie and I were air lifted to the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit in Nanaimo where she stayed for three very long days. The nurses and doctors all assured us eventually that she was just fine, and she passed all tests and we were finally aloud to bring her home. Bringing her out of the hospital everything seemed more beautiful.

Two weeks ago, Maisie was back in Emergency with difficulty breathing. I had her in my arms and was going to register her, I looked to my left and saw Chris Black (Kimberly Wood's mom). I was in a hurry to check Maisie in, but the look on her face... kind of broke my heart. How many times has she been sick with worry about her little girl (who has grown into a talented, caring, nurse herself). How many times had her and her husband Bill looked at each other with those worried, but trying to keep it together looks on their faces. I couldn't stop picturing Kim as a little girl (they were our neighbors growing up) and Kim was probably the cutest baby/little girl ever (aside from Maisie of course). Holding the nebulizer to Maisie's little face I could see Kimmy downstairs in their family home with the mask on, taking pills, laying on that weird brown fold up physio bed having her back thumped on (part of her daily physio). I could see her dad squeeze her hand when he walked her down the isle and the look on her moms face. I could see her giving every speech at every Rod Brind'Amour Golf Classic. I could see the whole family fighting. Fighting for a cure for Cystic Fibrosis, for better drugs, for more improvements, for a better life and a longer life for Kim. So, when they gave me medication for Maisie and told me that it would pass. We sighed a deep sigh of relief, but I also thought about what it is like for the doctors to say "Cystic Fibrosis" instead. Being a parent, I get it even more now than I ever did before. When there is something wrong with your child. THE WHOLE WORLD STOPS and nothing matters, except your baby.

Chris and Bill Black are the most inspiring human beings you will ever meet or know. They are fighting, Kim is fighting. Sometimes the fight seems overwhelming, like it might be too much... you'll see Kim's statuses go to "Not particularly excited about my upcoming hospital food, hospital bed, PICC line and having my life revolve around an IV medication schedule. I suppose it'll be nice to be able to take a deep breath though." And then, we she turns a corner and comes out fighting... they go to "Just wanted to say thank you all so very much for all your well wishes, thoughts, positive healing energy and everything else you've all sent me. I feel so loved and cared for and am happy to finally be out of the hospital! Although I'm still on IV antibiotics, I'm feeling a little stronger and ready to kick some CF ass." And, you want to stand up and cheer and yell and hug someone. Kim is an inspiration and I love her dearly.

Which brings me to our Happiest Halloween Ever event. I love kids in costume (dogs too for that matter) and with everything Kim was going through I was shocked that I hadn't done a fundraiser myself for Cystic Fibrosis Canada. I noticed a friend on facebook Jacquilyn Avery Photography doing some Halloween mini sessions for autism. I was instantly on board, and couldn't wait to do it for Cystic Fibrosis. Awesomeness everywhere. It is totally a WIN WIN situation. I get to spend a few hours photographing your hilarious small people all dressed up, and you get photos of your little ones dressed up, and Cystic Fibrosis Canada makes money. I LOVE IT. Come! Join us!

Let's have some laughs, raise some money and be even more awesome than we thought we were today. I love you all for your amazing support!!!

(phewf, we made it. That was an emotional and long one.) First a few images of Kim with her parents on her wedding day in August 2008 (fundraiser info to follow).

There is no minimum donation, but you can give whatever your heart is inspired to and whatever you can afford. We are creating a positive, fun experience to raise awareness about Cystic Fibrosis and to raise some money for an amazing cause. I am also doing it, to show the beautiful Kimberly Wood... that we ALL LOVE HER, support her and are fighting right along side her. In the little ways that we can. She is not alone. (I know there are other amazing kids in Campbell River with Cystic Fibrosis and we are of course, fighting for you all too! But... Kim is pretty close to my heart.)

Details are below and if you have any questions or concerns please do not hesitate to ask! Also, if you are a local business and would like to donate something for this event, or have any ideas on how to entertain a hopefully long line of people (kids) please let me know! The photos will happen in a line up style. No appointment necessary! Please share this poster, and this post with anyone you can!

Selena and Trevor: Married.

Selena was radiant. Heart swellingly glowing. Trevor was excited. We chose to do a "First Look" before the ceremony (which I LOVE and would always recommend!) He had his back to Selena as she approached he said nervously "I feel like the Bachelor". He was of course spellbound when he turned around to see Selena cross the open field at Shelter Point Distillery, in Oyster River of Campbell River.

I always say that I love my people. Saying "my clients", just seems weird. The intimacy, connection and shared moments of their wedding days often brings me to tears, and reduces me to a puddle of smiley faced nostalgia as I sit and edit their images, post them online, blog about them, print them... deliver them. After the dust has settled from their wedding, I go through their images. Searching for the ones that tug on my heart strings and bring back their day with the most clarity. I am working, however I am also spending moments of my life with them and with that, I choose to do so as passionately, lovingly, creatively and honestly as possible. I may fumble around, pop buttons, trip on myself and occasionally say awkward things (ok more than occasionally) but, I am fully aware that I am creating a cherished heirloom. I am a wedding photographer, their chosen wedding photographer.

They could have chosen anyone, but they chose me. That is divine intervention, in my opinion. That, is beautiful.

My brides this year have been stunning, caring, kind wild and also daring. They've laid down in wet leaves, stood on the edges of very scary cliffs, and have climbed through barbed wire for me. Seeing their trust in me, their belief that we are doing something wonderful... is truly more than I could ever ask for. If you trust me, we have far better chances of making magic together.

I said, "well, it's locked... we'd have to climb through the barbed wire." Selena looked at me as if thinking "that's it? No problem." and she hiked up her dress and without doubt or hesitation, climbed right through as did the entire wedding party. The fellas were willing to set aside their beers (somewhat reluctantly at first) and the gals were willing to do just about anything. I am lucky. The day before the winds ripped the tent down, breaking things, causing panic. However, for us, and our photos the weather couldn't have been more perfect. Being the second to last wedding of my 2011 season, I can't help but think about all of the weddings that have come before this one. All of the couples, all of the images. All of the love.

I am so... totally appreciative of all of the shared moments. These are my impressions of a beautiful wedding.

Thank you Selena and Trevor. ox

Wedding Venue: Shelter Point Distillery (Just fyi.... this is an AMAZING VENUE! If you are searching for a wedding venue in Campbell River, I'd be checking on their availability! Beautiful!) Getting Ready Venue: Timberlane Beach Resort, Saratoga Beach. Hair: Sharne's Hairstream (mobile hairdressing studio! GENIUS) Make up: Lisa @ Elements Esthetic Lounge Flowers: Amy @ The Willows Market PS... Coley! You're next!!! xoxo